Toxic People Suck!

Unfortunately I happen to be stuck with one of my very own. It's like the toxic person is put on the planet to make someone's life miserable and this one is all mine. It doesn't help with that thing called self esteem. Too bad there isn't a patch. That would be handy. Just slap it on and all the toxic fumes slide off you like there's a protective bubble that comes along with the patch.

A spray would be handy too. Along with the mace you could carry it in your purse. I could just spray when a toxic person is in the vicinity. Since that doesn't seem likely to happen I'll have to go the ignore route. That is a lot easier said than done. I did that today and avoided a comment that would obviously have that toxicity attached to it. So instead of staying there to hear it I walked away.

It's like people don't realize that words can do some major damage. No visible marks are left but that doesn't mean they aren't there under the surface. So I'm trying to remind myself of that whenever a nasty comment is sent my way. It's like this McTroll is trying to sabotage me. Let's make some comment about weight and see if she cracks because I want to make her cry.

So what if I get two donuts at the grocery store. It's not like I'm getting a case that I scarf down the second I get home. It's two lousy donuts. It's better than before when I'd get a box which has eight or the little donuts that come in a bag. Not that I'd eat those in one siting. Who is McTroll to judge? I don't see McTroll going to a gym or doing anything that resembles a workout.

I walk and I've also been doing this workout from On Demand and this would be week eight of that. I've always been a walker so it's not like I sit on my ass 24/7 or something. I even tried the more advanced workout or whatever which I think I'll do every other day for the time being. So I really don't need toxic fumes sent my way.

I have a theory about the whole weight thing. Just like people come in different shades they also come in different sizes. We can't all be size 0 or 4 or 8. I've long since broken myself of the habit of stepping onto the scale. There's just no reason to step on an inanimate object that has the power to bum me out or give me a happy if I discover I lost a pound or whatever. That's just crazy if you ask me. It's just good to not gain weight so maintaining isn't a horrible thing but you get bummed if you don't lose or if you gain.

It's not like you can look at a person and know if they stuff their face all day long or not. A bigger person might not eat all that much while a small person gets their chow on big time. All a person can do is try to become comfortable in their own skin. So I'm trying to ignore the negative. I try a little chanting when some remark is made. A remote that could be used to mute a person would be handy. Someone should really invent one if it's even possible which I kinda doubt. I guess things like that are just in the movies.

Witch Humor!

1. Your other car is a broomstick.

2. You have Eye Of Newt in your pantry.

3. Your laugh resembles a cackle.

4. You frequently use a cauldron.

5. You have a wand.

6. Your favorite symbol is the pentacle or the triquetra.

7. You think a pointed hat is so 17th century.

8. You were burned at the stake in a past life.

9. You like to scare the neighborhood children.

10. On Halloween you embrace the horrible stereotype and paint your skin green.

11. Your favorite color is black so of course your nails are painted black.

12. Your favorite movie is The Wizard Of Oz.

13. Your favorite movie is The Craft.

14. Your favorite movie is Bewitched.

15. You have a tiara and only answer to the name Glinda.

16. You have changed your name to that of your favorite witch.

17. You travel around in a bubble.

18. Your favorite show is Charmed.

19. You are seeing if you can go to Hogwarts.

20. You don't like being caught in the rain because you're afraid you might melt.

Tossed Thoughts!

So I didn't have such a great start to the day when I was walking down the stairs with my breakfast. I really shouldn't have been carrying the milk in my right hand. That led to slight spillage but not too much. If that wasn't enough I again spilled this time on my shirt. And to make things funner there was a change of rain. Yes I went out and made it back without getting soaked like a rat but it did try and there was grumbling in the sky. So I did get a little work on my Veronica Mars website. Oh the funness of being on a computer while you're standing up. I guess lying down wouldn't work so well.

As you can see there is a little green witch to the left. Yes I don't like the whole stereotype about green witches. I don't understand where it came from. Whose genius idea was that anyway and are the green witches the evil ones because Glinda sure isn't green in The Wizard Of Oz? I'm a firm believer in exceptions to the rule and this little witch is just adorable even if she is green.

I really need to find someone to do the witchy studying thing with. It's not easy doing it on your own because you can just totally slack off and not do anything. Maybe it's time to change my listing at WitchVox. I'm not really have much luck with hearing from anyone. I guess the reason for that could be the email because I'm not sure which email address it has on the ad. I've been wanting to read Oh My Goddess but luck of fundage prevented that and my search at the library instead landed me with a manga of the same name. Now that was probably about two years ago so I'm been naughty.

So it's off to search I'll go to see if I can find someone to form a friendship/journey into the world of witchcraft. Well Wicca is a more friendly term because the other word still might make people raise their eyebrows at hearing it. I don't understand why that is. If someone were to tell me that they were interested in Buddhism I wouldn't give that reaction. Different people go on different paths but ultimately they end up at the same destination.

I'm doing good with naming my entry for my manuscript. I am now about halfway through so I should have that done in the next day or two. When I have that done I'm going to seriously go hunting for publishers to send it to. I just don't know if I should wait to hear from a place before sending it out to another. I do have a publisher showing interest but it would cost me so I'm a little weary about that because it could just be about getting money out of my pocket.

Some Titles I've Been Working On

I guess the hard part is out of the way since the book is actually wrote and all but now comes the naming of the entries. It's done as a diary but I decided to do it like a blog with a title for each of the entries. Here are some of the titles I've come up with.

This Wasn't The Death I Was Looking For

Newly Undead

Unquenched Desire

She's For Real!

Talking To Myself

A Website?

Oh Joy A Quiz

A Silver Lining

Death At Last!

So Disappointing!!

Confusion Struck/Struck By Confusion

The Great Escape/Slayer Charity Case

And The Award Goes To...

Act Normal

Shop Till I Dropped Or The Money Runs Out

Curses Foiled Again

He's For Real

Only In My Head?

Got Pencil Will Stake

Stupid Plastic

I Wish

Total Book Slut

I Called And She Came

Struck Down Again

Well Worth The Wait

Looking Spiffy

Friends With A Demon

Should Air Every Christmas

Dumb Blonde Moment/Dye My Hair Blonde Already

Best Phone Call Ever

Bizzaroverse

Did I Go Crazy Without Anyone Telling Me?

I Think He Really Likes Me And He's No Mikey

A few have a couple titles right now but it's a start. Only a whole bunch more to go before I have them all named. So that's what I'll be doing each day doing the naming thing and maybe some day in a not so distant future I'll have that done and be able to do some more searching around for publishers that will take one look at this manuscript and drop their mouths in awe at the sheer brilliance. Ok I would like some interest so a hmm would be better than nothing.

Nose Picker Not

I get that nose picking might be a necessary evil every once in a while. I'm just talking about if a booger gets caught on a hair or something. A tissue doesn't always work so good at the grabbing of the pesky booger that just wants to stick around. The must like it there in that cavelike place with a soft and furry place to nestle in. Maybe they really like it up there.

It's not like you can ask your own boogers what they are thinking about since they can't talk and don't have brains. Maybe it's like that Musinex commercial but really, really small because no matter how big your nose is it can't be that big like on the commercial. I guess you can't escape so you have to learn to deal with them. Use a tissue to clear out the holes and use picking only as a last resort. Also pick a private place for the picking experience. This shouldn't be something that you relish as a part of your regular routine because that's just gross.

Of course washing the hands afterwards is a must. I don't get people who live with a finger permanently lodged up the nose. That is so gross especially when a person does it anywhere and everywhere. I certainly don't want to be out and minding my own business only to come across someone who thinks there mining for gold or something up there. It's like they have this thought that hey I'm awake so why not start digging away. You just might hit your brain that way or at least get a nose bleed.

Unfortunately I know someone with this need to dig for whatever's up there. Don't you run out of boogers at some point? It's not like I've ever found my nose overflowing with them. It's not something I think about all that often anyway. Ok its not something I think about at all. It's not like the boogers run over. Sure snot does when you've got a cold but it's not hard but gushy. So there really is no need to pick the nose. So why do people have this compulsion? I guess it's better than pikcing at the ass.

So if you simply must pick your nose don't do it in public since I don't want to see it and I'm sure there are plenty of other people out there that feel the same way. Pick your nose if you want to but be respectful of others who are just grossed out by it. No the car doesn't count because you can see through windows unless they're tinted. Who knows there could be all kinds of nose picking going on in those cars. I just don't the appeal. Aren't there other things a person can do with their hands like knitting? At least you can get something out of that like a sweater or a scarf or something maybe even a tea cosy.

Period Do's And Don'ts

1. Don't give in when there's a sale where you buy three candy bars and get three free. Yes that's a good deal but this leads to trouble when you find yourself finishing them off by the next day. Trust me on that.

2. Do wear loose pants because you're already uncomfortable enough. You're already feeling crappy so why add to the crappyness.

3. Do have lavender on hand because rubbing it on the tummy does help with the nauseousness at least the oil does. I won't know if lotion works until I run out of the oil.

4. Don't drive yourself nuts for bingeing a bit. Just go with it and remember that it's not an every day sorta thing. Thankfully for me it tends to be just one day.

5. Do exercise but remember that it's ok to take it a little easy on the first day since that tends to be the worst one.

6. Do tell about it being that time of month which explains away the whole bitchiness that happens.

For some strange reason the period arriving at different times of the day determines how it'll go. I don't know why that is or if that's just me. It's not like I get into a whole period discussion with people. That would be kinda weird but it's a thought to find out if I'm just strange or not. Ok I am strange but stranger I guess would be more accurate.

Lost In The Finale!

Well I love the show Lost but I have to say that confusion struck me with the finale. Usually they show what happened before each of the people got to the island so I assumed and we all know what assuming does that the Jack scenes were of him in the past. Color me kooky but I thought that the music was setting the time frame so I figured it was during the nineties not that Nirvana isn't an awesome band that people should continue to listen to for eternity. It's just that it seemed to be the past because his ex wife turned up and he was all death wishy so it looked like it was shortly after they split up. Am I the only one to think this? Also he had that really aweful beard. I guess that's what happens when you're too depressed to shave.

It was certainly quite a different side to Jack. Also unless I've gone crazy or something didn't it seem like this was a time when his Dad was still alive? So color me stunned when the one he meets turns out to be Kate. So it looks like that was future shots and not flashbacks that we were seeing. Getting off the island seemed to agree with Kate but not Jack because it looks like he turned into his Dad. He sounded like Locke there at the end. So of course I'm looking forward to season four but I want some answers to ease the confusion.

I personally think Locke is an asshole. He was totally selfish to blow up the submarine. If he wants to stay on the island fine but that doesn't mean that everyone else has to. Clare shouldn't be stuck there raising her child. Look at poor Alex and Carl who grew up there with no one else their own age which has to suck and having Ben be her so called father doesn't help matters any. I wonder who the real father is and who are Carl's parents. Oops I got stuck in a rant while I was ranting about John. He can stay if he wants to because he believes that he'll be confined to his wheelchair. That's selfish to only be thinking of himself when there are other people to consider.

I gues John got over his killing phobia. If my Dad stole my kidney and pushed me out of a window eight stories up I would totally have no problem killing him but no he had to pussy out and have Sawyer do it although he had good reason to. He is the reason Sawyer is so Little Boy Lost. And who else things the he that Kate wanted to get back to was Sawyer or rather James? That probably was another knife to Jack's poor heart and didn't help with his death wishy state of mind.

Let that be a lesson to you if you see someone on the bridge about to jump pay attention to where you're driving and get past before they jump and don't in an accident. I guess he could have chosen a better time when no one was around to do the deed. He even took the same airline. If I crashed on an airline and survived I don't think I'd take the same airline ever again or probably wouldn't fly again for that matter. Jack's a doctor for Hade's sake so why didn't he just do the deed that way since I'm sure he'd have all kinds of ways to do himself in.

Well I'm hoping that Charlie comes back to life because the island seems to do that. I wasn't too thrilled that John wasn't dead because he was so stupid. Maybe Jacob was the one that took the form of Walt. Shouldn't he and his Dad be out on the ocean somewhere. Maybe they are the ones that sent the boat there. I was wondering about that because Michael did kill two people that if he made it to land that he wouldn't send help to rescue the others because of the potential murder charges that he could be stuck with. I wonder what happened to them anyway. Stupid Cyclops keeps coming back to life and he's so creepy so there's hope for Charlie. After all he did survive being strung up to a tree and had that Xena and Gabrielle moment with Jack. If you don't watch Xena you won't get that because it reminded me of the episode Is There A Doctor In The House? except they are two guys and aren't the best of friends.

If people can come back to life why didn't Boone and Shannon come back? They just stayed dead and what about the two that were buried alive. Couldn't they have dug themselves out of the sand when they woke up unless it was already too late. She was waking up when she was getting buried wasn't she? What is the deal with this invisible Jacob anyway? If Ben can talk to him why didn't he hear what he said to Locke? Is this his imaginary friend or is it the island or some kind of demon or something? There are lots of questions that need to be answered. Are they in the Bermuda Triangle? Is that why no one seems to know where the island is? Who are the people on the boat? Are they evil? Is Ben evil? Yes to that last one because he just exudes creepy.

I Hate This Time!

Well it's that not so fun time of the month that I absolutely despise but I guess I have to be grateful that it doesn't come like clockwork since it's been almost two months. So that's something and it's not one of the worse ones where I feel like utter shit complete with the fun filled nausea package. I just don't like that at all so I wish I'd found out more about that pill that is supposed to stop your period indefinitely which would be great. I would like it to stop alltogether because it doesn't do me any good. I think it's pretty pointless not to mention uncomfortable.

That could explain why that guy decided to get into the street when I was walking over to the Bemis library from the fun bus stop located in the train station area whatever thingie. Maybe he's a vampire and he could smell the blood. That's gross I know but who knows because it doesn't make any sense otherwise. I saw both people and I moved over to the other side of the sidewalk so it's not like he couldn't have just walked past me like the girl did. It's times like this when I bless the creator of sweatpants.

Whoever did this wonderful thing has the gratitude of those of us who get all bloated every month or so because regular pants just don't cut it when you gain about ten pounds that goes away afterwards. I never understood that because it's so strange. Too bad other weight doesn't go along with it. Why not grab another five pounds while you're at it.

Could It Be A Curse?

Ok lately every time I try to take the bus to go to the halfway decent library something happens to prevent that from happening so I end up at Crapolla instead. Tuesday I barely missed the bus but I wasn't sure about the time anyway so it wasn't a huge disaster or something. So of course I looked in the crappy library to get a bus schedule to see if there had been any changes. Of course they had every one of them but one the one that I was looking for. There's also the weather being crappy.

Maybe it's just me but I don't particularly like the idea of busing it when it's raining. I already had the not so fun of doing it when it unexpectedly snowed which was utterly miserable. So the fingers are crossed that tomorrow will be the day that it finally happens. This is so stupid because it's like the weather gods are against me or something. Could someone be trying to tell me something? There was a mugging that I only missed because of the day and not the time because I would have been there.

Once again it rained and some leaked inside. I'm just glad that it was in the room with no carpet and it wasn't too bad. There was some bucket action but not much. That's always a fun time filling up the buckets with icky rainy water and going up the stairs and through the garage and dumping it out on the driveway. Woohoo that is such an exciting thing to do. Rain should really stay outside where it belongs or better yet go somewhere else because it messes with things like the reception. The other day I recorded something and the signal went down so I had the funness of a blank screen except for the message of no signal. Not an exciting show to watch if you ask me.

My Manuscript!

Well it took a while but after a few incarnations I was able to finish my manuscript. I'm just waiting to see if I can get it published which isn't too easy. So I'm just taking it slow because frankly it gets expensive mailing out a copy of it. It doesn't help that the stamp has just gone up. Why do they keep doing that? Shouldn't they lower the price because less people are doing the whole mail thing? It would be nice.

Another option would be to save it on a disk but I'm not so sure about that. I don't know if I can save it from a draft in my email. I was able to find some places that are willing to take submissions by email which is pretty handy. I want to go the cheap route because I just don't have the fundage for it really. So it's a hunting I will go to see if I can find places. What is a bit of a pain is the whole query thing. Some places want a page telling what the book is about.

I am also tossing around a few titles because I'm not sure about the one that I've been using. Right now it's called Diary Of A Blue Vamp. I thought about another title Undead And Blue. I am also wondering about the whole entries thing. For now I just have the entries numbered but I don't want to keep it that way. I was thinking about creating a whole new calendar but I don't think that'll work. Besides Piers already created a cool calendar. I was thinking about using bat in the months of the year.

Jabatuary
Febatuary
Mabat
Apbat
Maybat
Jubat
Julbat
Augbat
Sepbatember
Octbater
Nobatember
Debatember

But I'm thinking that isn't too good. I could always use the regular old calendar or I was thinking about just doing it like a blog and create titles for each entry. It's just something I'm considering right now. I just have to think of some things and take another looksie at each of the entries and see what comes to mind. So I guess I have something to occupy me during the bummer of losing another great show which pisses me off. Different name but seems like same old network to me.

Wednesday Rant

Well it's Wednesday and I'm pretty ticked about Veronica Mars getting cancelled. I guess it's like that evil network never left if it's going to do that. So my mind is made up on whether or not to watch that new show Hidden Palms. That would be a big roaring no on my part so I'll just watch the shows that were already in progress and not bother watching other shows even if they do catch my interest. As far as I'm concerned that network doesn't exist.

I guess I should have wondered when the show was off for about three months which should be a red flag. Also Chris looks to be jumping networks to that new spinoff of Greys Anatomy which is quick. I hope he's on it because he was on that episode where they introduced us to the cast and I thought it was a new show when Addison headed out to LA. So that's something to look forward to on a day of bummerdom.